aidilfitri without mama

Assalamualaikum lovers...today is last day of ramadhan..sure evrymuslims tgh bersemangat and bergembira nk celebrate raya..but for me raya should be celebrated dgn sederhana saja...because my mom da xder..nothing special laaa...pagi raya pon daa sedih because ziarah pusara mama...hmmm

but this year abah mmg happy...even me also excited because this year raya kami meriah sikit dgn kehadiran cahaya mata pertama qisha...da 5 month pon aisy...shopping raya pon daa laen...dulu bli baju untuk myself and ayie..now everything is for him...for our little boy...mommy and daddy xde baju raya pon xper janji our son dpt sume baru...we spent a lot this year for aisy...

this year xde theme lagi but im planning for next year punye raya i'll bought kain and tempah teros sepasang baju malayu for abah, ayie and aisy...me myself will pakai baju kurung sepasang dgn adek...but ni plan for next year laa...this year daa tooo late...even pegi shopping baju adek arituh pon da dikategorikn as last minute...hurmmmm....next time kne prepare awal laaa...

raye this year aisy pakai jubah...sure cute anak mommy kn..huhuhuhu...first raya dgn abah..maybe second day of raya blk klantan...spent raye dekat sane..im soo greatful dpt family in law yg understanding..bcos i can spent my raya with my family first then baru dgn dorg..syukur sgt...bcos kesian adek and abah raya berdua jer...alhamdulillah....

Raya this year i plan to cook rendang ayam and kuah nasi empit by myself..wish me luck ok...well tgk resepi online jer..hope menjadilaa rendang ayam ni...amin...

SALAM AIDILFITRI SEMUA!!!!

first raya as husband and wife..also mommy and daddy wannabe

family abah

i am 4 month pregnant

pray for syria!!!

assalamualaikum to all lovers..salam ramadhan evryone..quite sometime xpost paper mommy terpanggil to share bout my thoughts..especially during ramadhan ni..evrybody pon tgh gile2 shopping get ready for hari raye..evrything mesti jadi baru..baju mesti baru..handbag baru..perfume baru...for mommy and daddy plak spent evry penny for the baby...baju mesti ad brand laaa..org kate bia papa asl bergaya...

even me myself pon sgtlaa suke nk spent duet...thou baju aisy banyak lagi yg baru sekali pakai but still nk bli lagi yg baru..baju raye for me n my hub pon ikutkn mesti nk yg baru laaa..padahal hakikatnyer pakai nyer sekali tuh jer...kuat kn membazer...suppose duet tuh bley simpan but normal laa bile da sume org tunjok baju baru off cos laa kite pon nak..haisshhh..nafsu..nafsu..

act qisha terpikir to tulis bout this after last nyte i watched video org post dekat fb psl syria...imam dorg ckp psl kebangkitan syam...can u guys imagine..kanak2 disembelih without belas kasihan..wanita dirogol..theres one time tuh satu muslimah ni dibogelkn then diletak kat tgh2 jln..Ya Allah dpt tgk perempuan tuh mcm try to escape then ad sorg pejuang islam nk selamatkn muslimah tuh then askar jahat tembak that guy dari jao...can u guys imagine that..dorg xde raye mcm kite..sume pon tgh perang..compare laa dgn our life in Malaysia...alhamdulillah kite aman..tp dorg pon rakan se agama kite we shud pray for them...

we shud berjimat n besederhana..mkn mesti habes..raye pon bia besederhana so that kite ad rase insaf to think how lucky we r...celebrating ramadhan dgn aman...i almost cried watching preview psl jenazah kanak2..i cannot imagine if it happen to me n my family..Ya Allah aku bersyukur malaysia aman...thank you Allah...pray for Syria people...hormati dorg yg dlm kesusahan..marilah kite berubah ke arah kebaikkan...insyaAllah..

Trilogy of job hunting!!!

Assalamualaikum lovers...well today qisha terpanggil untuk share bout my trilogy of job hunting....because i know nowadays nk get hired tuh mmg sgtlaa payah...senarai IPTA in malaysia ad 20 tau...IPTS plak ad 465...fuhhh..byk tuh baru tau..total both ad 485 universities and colleges in malaysia...i do some statistic search in google in mohe.gov total student overall register in IPTA for 2007 were 76597students...i took 2007 because that time i am a bachelor degree student....fuhhhh can u imagine that????

u guys think out of 76597 tuh brape org yg confirm2 kluar teros dpt kerja??hurmmm...i finish my degree teros my parent suroh continue master...we thot peluang makin cerah bile ad master kn...soo i pon apply laaa dekat UM..act i xmo continue pon because i think i nk kerja dulu tp tuhlaaa...da parent mmg nk sgt i continue i pon ikot jerlaa...apply under KPTM punyer scholar dekat UM..trough email they said i diterima... so ok laa...i pon finish my master for 3semester..i amek coursework jer...act ad pro n cons jgk between research n coursework..research act lg bagus compare to coursework bcos u spent 3 years for ur project but me, i took coursework...kononnyer nk cpat abes...

ad mini project time buat master...so i do have my thesis...tapi coursework i kne attend class everyday...byglaa kelas daa laa ptg bebenor....pg class ngn sume org yg working...lucky me kwn2 time bachelor degree ad di sisi..soo senanglaaa...ad gang...heheheheh...in 2011 tuh i daa dpt my scroll..alhamdulillah...then bermula laa episode mencari kerja...convo on 2011 but act daa abes blaja 2010 lagi...sooo episode mencari kerja daa start 2010...i send my CV dekat kak lina jobstreet..satu pon xpernah panggil...xtau laaa knape...agaknyer CV xcukop bagus kot...soo gune alternative laen plaklaaa...i sent all my resume by hand dekat college and university...

mmg tuff sgt tau because org daa bising tanye...da abes blaja ke???knape xkeje lg...sebok je kn dorg nih...ad tuh siap ckp lg...aik??blaja tinggi2 xkan xkje lagi???saket ati...bernanah je telinga nih..ad tuh kwn2 yg memandang enteng pada course yg qisha amek tau...siap ckp lg..U NI DEGREE KE DIPLOMA...saket ati kn...tau laa die medic student xyah laa nk memandang entang pd diriku...phuiii!!!but its ok laaa...positive thinking jer...kire mcm motivate diri qisha jgk laa kate2 kwn rapat sendiri tuh!!!huhuhuhu...

last2 sbb xde kje sgt i pon mintak tlg my friend to recommend my name utk kje in banking...haaa...kat sini keje mmg best..pakai pon alaa mcm banking punye org...pakai skirt laaa....make up sket2..hehehehhe...i buat acc JAY CHOU tau....bcos im working as antimoney laundering analysis..haaaaa...nk tau lebih lanjut..bace next post k...salam ramadhan...

office qisha sebelah klcc jer...

cesarean episode 3

assalamualaikum and salam ramadhan lovers...well sure people getting bored bcos story psl beranak nih x abes2..hahahhaha...well yeah...u cant never imagine what im facing on my labor day...siyesly 1day is not enough to share with you guys the story..continue from smalm punyer story...i stop till the nurses put me ready for operation...they change my pink cloth which i love to where it..now im wearing white clothing same like arwah mama wore during her OP day...dorg pakaikn tube kenching jgk..tp mcm klam kibut soo tube xready btol2...ayie dtg dekat then i say i was sorry bcos i had risk our baby boy life...based on the CTG reports his heart becomes weak...

contraction all the time dtg...i really cant wait to see my baby...mix feeling time tuh..either baby ngn mommy slamat or not..n im soo scared..pakar bius which is dr yg sgtlaa muda come and see me and explain psl the bius..well, frankly speaking i was thinking nk jerit dekat dr tuh suh cpat sket bcos saket sgt time tuh..but i manage to tahan dr marah..alhamdulillah...she ask for my signature...finally diam pon die..i ask them to btolkn blk my tube kencing.. 

dlm OT tuh sejuk gile...pakar bius td suh qisha duduk n peluk bantal...at first die inject ubat tahan saket then tros inject kt tulang blakang...i mmg xrs saket langsung bcos contraction lg saket time tuh...after da inject...lega sgt hoookeyyy...ilang saket contraction..i cant feel my leg..fuhhh..i mmg calm jer time OP tuh...tp sejuk gile i ckp dekat nurse..they die psgkn kipas yg kluarkan angin panas..weird kn angin panas kuar but its true tau..mmg gigil dlm tuh...what i remember one dr laki2 and dr indian laki jugak yg do the OP...

i bley rase dorg sapukn i think iodin kot...then i can smell my meat burn...that time i know few more minutes i bley jumpe my new boy friend...yeay!!!!qisha bley rs perot qisha dikorek korek..then suddenly ringan jer perot...dgr bunyi baby batok...then nanges sekuat ati...Allahuakbar...happy sgt that time...the nurse dtg n tunjukkn bebird aisy..i said i know already..i nk tgk muke i ckp...then nurse ltak aisy lame dkat dada qisha...i kiss his leg..pink sgt color aisy time tuh...rambut mcm daddy die hehehe...my life change...i had a son now...alhamdulillah..aisy laher at 9.11am 1/3/2013 n 3.62kg..bambam kn...infact sbb lame dlm perot rambut n kuku da panjang daaa...owh Aisy...

photostat muke daddy

dagu tajam u olls...

cesarean baby episode 2

assalamualaikum lovers...continue from smalam...after the dr said jln daa bukak 3cm..rs nk lompat pon ad thou sgt lame tunggu..act everytime dorg check jln dorg will help to increase the bukaan..so that night the nurse put me on wheel chair n menuju ke labor...wooo berdebar die tuhan jer tau...im alone..no phone are aloud..i dont know they inform x ayie yg i da masuk labor room..rase excited and nk nanges pon ad bcos im on my on...hurmm..abah da blk pekan daa..yg ad ma n my hubby...he need his mom for the moral support..at first we decide xnk susahkn both parties..we try to face it on our own..tp tuhlaaa...new parent need a moral support yg kuat dr family...we dont know what to do kan after the baby born..contohnyer what to do with tali pusat...soo kehadiran ma sgtlaa membantu suami qisha...

the nurses put me on bed...cabut my kain tinggal bj je..bilik daa laa sejok yang amat..grrrrr...dahaga...lapar..sume ad...lucky me the nurse help me dgn bg qisha air...they induce me again using drip..this time contraction dtg makkkk aiiiiii...saket gile sampai nak nanges pon xbley...i keep on tekan button bed tuh turon naik turon naik....sakkeeetttt sgt....dr muda dtg then pecah kn my ketuban...fuhhh...panas jer rase air tuh mengalir....saket contraction mmg xley ckp laaa...waaaaaaa...xslesa lg dgn air yg continuously kluar from bawah..fuhhhh...rs nk poopoo pon ad....

first timer like me mmg xtau when it comes to the real day...thou we read a lot..we google a lot...still sume tuh xmembantu unless the nurses remind us...i ask her to check my bukaan..6cm...yeay..but 6cm tuh like forever k...daa 6 hours kot dlm labor...saket sorg2..wooo..i need my husband!!!its cold inside the labor room...but im sweating...no energy at all..rase nk push mmg ad...the nurse ckp jgn push lg...nnt koyak...but i mmg rs nk push sgt..when i said nk push die ckp jgn then die blah cmtuh jer...wooooo...rs nk mrh ad..but sabar je bcos we dont know he reason kan..maybe mmg care die mcm tuh...then early in the morning new dr dtg n check my bukaan..da 8cm...fuhhhh..2cm jer bertambah after berjam daa tunggu...sbr je laaaa...

that time daa 6am kot..msk labor 9pm until now xbrank lg...pastuh msk plak dr india i think this one mmg pakar...check my bukaan daa 10cm...but no one asking me to push...qisha pon sgt penat..saket yg xbley tahan..i think they r lucky to have me as their patient sbb i ni ikot jer..diam jer...SUPPOSE I SHOULD BISING DLM TUH...MAYBE ITS MY FAULT JGK SBB IKOT JER CKP DORG...PTT TIME NK PUSH TUH I PUSH JER...BIA DORG KELAM KIBOT BILE TGK KPALE AISY...NI X..I FOLLOW WHAT THEY SAID..AFTER THIS I ALREADY KNOW WHAT TO DO...HURMMM..INSYAALLAH SECOND BABY I NAK NORMAL BIRTH...SOON!!!

then ap mende tah dorg buat ramai staring at my downside the dr pakar yg india td said i cant push bcos aisy already facing up...if i push it would be risk to the baby's life..maybe bley lemas...finally they decide for c-section...they call my husband..i can see his frustrated face and worried face bcos 12 hours tunggu i kat luar without any news..sure he think that moment when his name being called it was the pushing moment..sorry BABE i cant push..i didnt diberi peluang to push this time...i sedih sgt bile tgk ayie daa bwk the baby stuff sume..they ask him for his permission to put me on cesarean...then they bring me to the operation room...

to be continue bcos aisy daa bgn tito...hehehehhehe... 

excited dpt pkai bj pink nih...

2cm at the moment...

Cesarean Baby episode 1

We are still mothers. We just had our babies through what I like to call a little kangaroo kind of pouch. Our path to motherhood may not be the same, but it's our path, something we need to find the beauty in, because all moms deserve that.

Assalamualaikum everyone...skejap jer daa 10 Ramadhan pon...xlame lg raye laaa kite...hurm..today i want to share with you guys during my labor day challenge..hahahhaah...qisha terpanggil to tell you this bcos smalam tgk kat channel LIFETIME psl one born every minute..One Born Every Minute is focused on providing helpful insights into the realities of giving birth, especially in a hospital environment. 

Qisha melahirkan aisy dgn technique pembedahan or cesarean..Im proud of it..lantak laa org nk ckp ap..esp theres certain mommy yg beranak normal cm ad sket belagak laa ngn kite..katenye die bley ank ramai laa hapee laaa...alaaa like i care what people say..janji my baby slamat n sihat sejahtera...Well to those yg pndang rendah pd qisha..i czer prot je kne ptg bawah xkne ptg.hahahahahha..

i suppose beranak kn aisy on the 19th of February...well "KUN FAYAKUN" ALLAH maha besar..Allah da tetapkn qisha deliver on 1st March 2013..1/3/13..cun kan date pandai aisy piley..Igt lagi sume org risau bcos qisha xberanak beranak lagi..sume tanye dkat FB laaa..call laaa...HELLO...i da laa 1st timer...korg byk tanye sume ni buat i semak hookey..i know laa caring tp jgn laa smpai evry minutes nk call tanye I da beranak belom..nnt da branak i update laa status..haissshhh..sampai qisha terpakse untok tidak online n off my hp bcos semak dgn sume org yg over caring nih...ad yg siap bg petua yg ngarot2 n what not laaaa...mls nk lyn..let me handle myself...bcos dgn ke'caring'ngan org yg berlebih2 ni buat qisha jd sgt stress...mcm2 pikir..risau sgt..jd x focus tau..x suke..x suke...

19th of feb tuh xrase saket lagi soo dorg extend my date..on 26th tuh if nothing happen~means water not broke n no contraction~qisha knelaa check in hospital...kitorg dr awl lagi daa plan nk deliver kat GOV hosp...soo qisha pon checkin laaa...baby's stuff da bawak skali..excited ni but i know nnt i kne induce..mostly org ckp induce sgtlaa saket...mlm tuh xdpt bed lg...kne tido ats kosi hookey..ya Allah besarnye dugaan..daa laaa boyot sakit pinggang tido ats kosi plak..tuhan jer tau..that time qisha mcm xworried pon bcos ramai jer case same like me which is overdue..heheheheheh...kitorg pon menunggu laa turn dpt katil bersama..tgk org laen da progress ad yg 4cm laa ad yg masuk tros beranak laa..but kitorg chill sbb kitorg ramai yg overdue...evrytime pon nurse akn do CTG and check bukaan..only 1cm...perghhhh pasrah da menunggu lagi....

ayie and my family sume ad..but dorg tunggu dkat luar...antar mkn sume..but i respect my husband laaa bcos he never put me on stress..xde pon ckp depan2 qisha bile nk branak..relax jer...siap say sorry i kne tdo on the floor...huhuhuhuhu...27th morning tuh Dr check daa 2 cm...huhuhuhu...evrytime nk check bukaan tuh saket tau..x suke xsuke...ptg 27th tuh baru laa ad katil kosong..me and my gang pon dptlaa bed satu sorg...da naek ward 9pm tuh Dr pakar dtg and induce me...using pills..i cannot move around for bout 1 hr...xslesa tuhan je tahu tau...sbr...mcm biase...i bykkn walking around the ward..tgk org sbelah dpt baby..i jln..n jln..jln...ptg tuh Dr check so ad progress da 3cm..hahahahahahah..im soo happy....i cant wait to see my precious...

Well to be continue tomorrow k!!!!

aisy stuff

4D scan during 5month of pregnancy

aisy my precious..

S26 Gold VS S26 Std

There is no finer investment for any community than putting milk into babies.
Winston Churchill

Assalamualaikum lovers...Yesterday thot to update my post at night tp malangnyer time tidokan muhammad aisy i felt asleep jugak...heheheheh..arwah mama ckp mate ikan tamban bcos cpat jer tertdo...hurm..yesterday im busy handling instrument which is LCMS..this instrument will help me to mengenali lebih dlm lg my compound dlm Ganoderma which Ganoderma ni amatlah pathogenic to oil palm..well pathogenic means sgt laa merbahaya to oil palm and can decrease the oil production..can u imagine if life without OIL PALM..Camano nk masak tuk berbuko..haisssyyyy...itulaa kerja qisha in MPOB...well sometimes i do curik mase to online..naseb im not addicted to candy crush bagai thou dlm ofis byk laaa pengaruh nyer....hehhehehe...

Yesterday ad jugak one of my closest friend dr time kechik until now i called her kakma...she's asking me bout what is the different between S26 GOLD and S26 Std...alaaa the one yg blue box and pink color tuh..to those yg ad anak sure familiar...sbb aisy dr bulan kedua kehidupannye die minom S26 GOLD..soo ofcourse laa i will promote kakma to try this too...tp bile die tanye cmtuh i lack of information sket...soo i do google time REHAT ok...at the same time i tgh running my sample in LCMS...haaaaa....soo i Google jumpe laaa name company WYETH which is yg memproducekn S26..dpt number phone kat situ qisha pon call tros..then tanyelaaa ap beza due nih...since the price berbeza like half ok...Can u imagine if aisy minom yg pink qisha bley safe half dr total which is nearly RM460 sebulan...haaa lebih tuh bley laaa mkn kat tempat mahal kn..hehehehehheeh...xpon bli bj ONLINE!!!!kehkehkeh...

The operator dkat WYETH pon answer my call n mintak details bout me and aisy...then i ask her ap beza....rupenye byk sgt beza S26 GOLD and S26 Std...

1. 3 times lutein ad dlm S26 Gold- this one untuk mate baby..pttlaaa mate aisy bersinar gitu..
2. Proteins yg easily bley hadam..Alhamdulillah senang aisy poopoo
3. terdiri dr susu cik lembu and soya...-soya normally help the baby's skin..
4. DHA, ARA sume yg high quality All formulas contain the fatty acids Docasahexaenoic Acid (DHA) and Arachidonic Acid (ARA). Studies have shown that these can help eyesight and brain development. Iron is also added to all formulas. Most formulas come in three forms- powder, ready-to-feed and liquid concentrate.
5. S26 Gold Alpha-Pro is better because the milk proteins have been broken down (that's the alpha pro bit) so that they are easier to digest and is the closest to breast milk. It is the only one on the market like this.It also has the standard 'gold' things like fish oil.
6. S26 gold contains omega 3 fatty acids, which are great for babies brain development. 

So to those yg nk try S26 try yg Gold k..DONT ever compromise pasal PRICE untuk our baby k...good luck mommy!!!